Change in 2009

I am expecting a ton of changes for 2009. With the help of a loving Heavenly Father we are hopefully going to be shaking things up a bit.

First we hope for Johnny to get in the with Lineman union. He is #2 on the NM waiting list and he interviews at two locations in Texas in January.

Second, if Johnny does get in the lineman union we will most likely be kickin' it in a travel trailer.

Third I will be working from home! YEAH! My employer told me that I was an asset to their company and even though I have only been with them for 6 months they didn't want me to have to resign when we move. The director and my manager have made arrangements for me to work from home. I will be provided a laptop and I will set my own hours Monday-Friday at home with my kids. I already have a tentative schedule in mind. It really feels that I have been working toward this type of position for a long time. When I started my MAED program working from home was my goal. We are so blessed!

Fourth, (and most important) we are going to have Hulse Baby #3 the end of August 2009. Yikes! I am still in shock. I was so hungry for a baby and now I am scared to death! My friend Janelle made me take a test two days before Christmas (I was putting it off). For Christmas Johnny got one gift he really didn't expect! I am so excited to be pregnant with a handful of wonderful friends. 4 of us are all due within 2 weeks of each other. I really want a girl but I would be happy with a boy too! I love my boys and Daniel is excited I have a baby in my tummy!

We have been so blessed. I feel like the Lord knows what we want and need and he is guiding our lives. I know that He loves me and my family. I love my boys! Johnny, Daniel & Jaxon are such a joy to me. I love my life.

BABY HUNGRY!

About 10 days ago my friend mentioned to me that she was going to have her IUD taken out because they were ready to have another baby. It made me start thinking...and now I can't stop thinking! I wish I could shut off my maternal cravings for just a few more months! You see, my friend and I have been prego together both times. We each have two kids almost exactly the same age. I feel like it is some kind of strange bond or connection between us. It is strange but I feel even closer to her when we are pregnant at the same time. We talk about names, clothes, babies, swelling, etc. All the fun stuff. Monday morning I found out she (and another friend of mine) are pregnant! I am such a TERRIBLE friend. Do you know what I said to her? Instead of congratulations I said "how could you?"! I was being sarcastic of course, but I know I am terrible. I am so sorry (you know who you are)! I am SO EXCITED FOR YOU!

I am excited for my friend, but now I want to be prego again too. But, then I walk into a store with Daniel and I cringe! I don't think I could survive another Daniel! If you have met Daniel you know what I mean. He is a wonderful, happy, energetic boy. He just has a little problem with authority and he NEVER stops talking. Jaxon on the other hand is quiet, doesn't say too much and loves to look at books. He will sit on my lap and let me hold him. But, he is starting to act more and more like Daniel. It has to be the age. Someone PLEASE tell me it is just the age. Daniel just turned 3. 18 months to 3 years was a really rough time with him...and it isn't over yet.

Am I ready for another baby yet? I think if it was a girl I would say absolutely! A boy? I am scared out of my mind to have another boy. They would outnumber us. A few weeks ago I bought Daniel one of the Monkey backpacks with a leash, I would need a few more leashes if I had another boy! I would need my own time out room! How did my grandmother survive? She had 3 boys! How did my mother-in-law survive? She had 6 boys. If any of you know Johnny I am positive Daniel is Johnny's mothers revenge on him! Now I am paying the price (don't get me wrong Johnny is totally worth it, but still). Another fear I have is that the next one will have the same condition Jaxon has. If the next one is a boy they have a 60% chance of having EE. If it is a girl it is only a 30% chance.

The other problem is we tried for 2 years before we found out we were pregnant with Daniel. Jaxon was a surprise, but what if we have to go through fertility again? Do I really want to delay getting that going?

The other night I went to bed asking Johnny about baby names...what is wrong with me? Someone tell me how to turn off my hormones.