About 10 days ago my friend mentioned to me that she was going to have her IUD taken out because they were ready to have another baby. It made me start thinking...and now I can't stop thinking! I wish I could shut off my maternal cravings for just a few more months! You see, my friend and I have been prego together both times. We each have two kids almost exactly the same age. I feel like it is some kind of strange bond or connection between us. It is strange but I feel even closer to her when we are pregnant at the same time. We talk about names, clothes, babies, swelling, etc. All the fun stuff. Monday morning I found out she (and another friend of mine) are pregnant! I am such a TERRIBLE friend. Do you know what I said to her? Instead of congratulations I said "how could you?"! I was being sarcastic of course, but I know I am terrible. I am so sorry (you know who you are)! I am SO EXCITED FOR YOU!
I am excited for my friend, but now I want to be prego again too. But, then I walk into a store with Daniel and I cringe! I don't think I could survive another Daniel! If you have met Daniel you know what I mean. He is a wonderful, happy, energetic boy. He just has a little problem with authority and he NEVER stops talking. Jaxon on the other hand is quiet, doesn't say too much and loves to look at books. He will sit on my lap and let me hold him. But, he is starting to act more and more like Daniel. It has to be the age. Someone PLEASE tell me it is just the age. Daniel just turned 3. 18 months to 3 years was a really rough time with him...and it isn't over yet.
Am I ready for another baby yet? I think if it was a girl I would say absolutely! A boy? I am scared out of my mind to have another boy. They would outnumber us. A few weeks ago I bought Daniel one of the Monkey backpacks with a leash, I would need a few more leashes if I had another boy! I would need my own time out room! How did my grandmother survive? She had 3 boys! How did my mother-in-law survive? She had 6 boys. If any of you know Johnny I am positive Daniel is Johnny's mothers revenge on him! Now I am paying the price (don't get me wrong Johnny is totally worth it, but still). Another fear I have is that the next one will have the same condition Jaxon has. If the next one is a boy they have a 60% chance of having EE. If it is a girl it is only a 30% chance.
The other problem is we tried for 2 years before we found out we were pregnant with Daniel. Jaxon was a surprise, but what if we have to go through fertility again? Do I really want to delay getting that going?
The other night I went to bed asking Johnny about baby names...what is wrong with me? Someone tell me how to turn off my hormones.
12 years ago
4 comments:
Wow, its funny how hearing you want to get prego again only makes me excited!! Of course I would also be wishing for you to have a girl, and would pray for you to not have 3 little Daniels running around at the same time. But, hey! why not start trying? Its fun, and you know, if its meant to happen, then a little angle baby will come your way. I love you Mel! and if you figure out how to turn the hormones off, let me know. I could use a power switch to keep my half way normal sometimes. lol :)
I Hear You Cluckin Big Chicken! I'm not longer hungry.... I'm Starving!
I agree with Diana! Why not start trying NOW and if it is meant to happen NOW it will and if it is not is won't. The Lord knows your concerns and he will work everything else out. I think you are having all of these thoughts and feelings for a reason. Good Luck! :)
We have those leash backpacks for Bubba and Trey too...lol! Bubba was a crazy kid, Trey was a calm baby, and Samuel is a perfect angel so far. I bet your third will be too!
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